Today, i resolute to start making an effort and mean it.
After watching (and tearing uncontrollably over) the movie, i started thinking about it. It was a very motivating movie to me because of the lessons i took away from it. It was a movie about marriage and christian faith but i took away more than the lessons on the marriage. Not only did it influence my insight on marriage but on life and education too. Somehow, i see myself in a similar situation except mine doesn't revolve around relationships.
The storyline of the movie (from the movie's official website)
At work, inside burning buildings, Captain Caleb Holt lives by the old firefighters' adage: Never leave your partner behind. At home, in the cooling embers of his marriage, he lives by his own rules. Growing up, Catherine Holt always dreamed of marrying a loving, brave firefighter...just like her daddy. Now, after seven years of marriage, Catherine wonders when she stopped being "good enough" for her husband. Regular arguments over jobs, finances, housework, and outside interests have readied them both to move on to something with more sparks. As the couple prepares to enter divorce proceedings, Caleb's father challenges his son to commit to a 40-day experiment: "The Love Dare." Wondering if it's even worth the effort, Caleb agrees-for his father's sake more than for his marriage. When Caleb discovers the book's daily challenges are tied into his parents' new found faith, his already limited interest is further dampened.While trying to stay true to his promise, Caleb becomes frustrated time and again. He finally asks his father, "How am I supposed to show love to somebody who constantly rejects me?"When his father explains that this is the love Christ shows to us, Caleb makes a life-changing commitment to love God. And with God's help he begins to understand what it means to truly love his wife. But is it too late to fireproof his marriage? His job is to rescue others. Now Caleb Holt is ready to face his toughest job ever...rescuing his wife's heart.
Caleb had a fierce battle with his determination on whether to continue this 40 days love on day20. Half way through, he felt his ''acts of love'' being cruelly trampled. No reciprocation, no appreciation for whatever he has done. It came down to crunch point before he realised that for the past twenty days, he never really meant anything that he had done. All he did was to follow the book's order half-heartedly and hope for miracle. He never really believed in what he did.
When i started thinking, i found this part similar to me studying. I blindly study because i have to. There isn't that will to want to succeed so badly. That's why i don't have the discipline. I tell myself i have to do this and after a while, i lose my will to continue being disciplined. Right now, i am like at day 20. The show down with determination and will power. If i were to retake 'A's, i simply cannot go on like this. (It's not as if i do not know previously. Just that i simply could not find that drive to push me on.) I lost sight of my fighting spirit, long before A levels ended last year. And now, it's a show down. Whether it is for university or for retaking, i need my fighting spirit back. It's time to fight.